Will You Love Me?

I think back on my life

The many mistakes and failures

The many times I have sinned

I think about the cost of it all

I think about how screwed up this world is

I think about life, death, chaos, and order

I think about the cause of all things

I think of how unlikely it all is

Then, I think of Your grace

That marvelous grace

That nourishing grace

That saving grace

I think of my faults and failures

I think of the life I live now, riddled with problems

Then, I think of Your perfect Son, who died

He did not just die

He was crucified, tortured

He came as a servant

The audacity of it all

How a King can die

I think of my pain and mistakes

And I think nothing compares to You

There is no conjuring for this grace

If I continue, will You love me?

If I continue this course

Will you forgive me?

Will you give life to these dry bones?

Will you meet me where I am at?

Will you change me from the inside out?

Many men have come to make a temple

Many men set out to be God

But You, Lord Jesus, are God

I confess this, my Savior:

I cannot do a thing on my own

I am utterly at Your mercy

Do with me what you will

I am Your vessel